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Indiana Experience 2011

Well, I had a fantastic week in Brazil, Indiana.

As I mentioned in my pervious blog about the trip up, which was basically uneventful, I wanted to make some observations about my old hometown and some of the people there. While my intention is not to be insulting in any way, I will have to admit that I come from one of the most backwards places I think I’ve ever been to. The streets, which haven’t been paved since I was in high school, are all the same. In fact, I think I hit some of the same potholes that were there last summer when I went to visit. It’s become sort of a running joke concerning Brazil, one that I’ve used on several occasions in a story or novel I’ve written.

The day after I arrived in Brazil my dad took me out of lunch at a little mom and pop restaurant called the Sunshine Diner. I had to have a sample of a northern delicacy that I have yet to find in Florida except during Bike Week, the breaded tenderloin sandwich. Okay, while that may not sound very important to you, the casual observer, it was important to me. You have never had a sandwich until you have munched on a tenderloin that is three times bigger than the bun, is breaded and fried to perfection, and is topped with the best condiments. For me, that includes a slice of cheese and some ketchup, although I have had them with pickles before and that is just as great. After my surgery, I can only eat about half of my tenderloin, but it was fantastic and reminded me of why I love those sandwiches so much. Darn Florida, learn how to make tenderloin!

The restaurant was filled with your basic Sunday afternoon crowd of older individuals who looked like they had escaped one of the local nursing homes, one old guy even had his oxygen tank in tow, and your average Brazilian. One guy came in dressed like a crazed biker, including leather chaps, vest, and hat. Only he was the skinniest guy I think I have ever seen apart from a starving children commercial. And his head looked like it had been shrunken by a witch doctor to boot. Now that was a pretty comical sight. They needed to start feeding him better or the wind was going to knock his moped over while he was riding it.

After we returned from the restaurant, my sister Dee came over and we sat and talked for while. Yeah, real excitement there. HA! It was great to visit, I talk to my sister way more than I ever speak to either of my brothers so it was nice to just relax and blather on about what was going on in the family. My dad, obsessed with westerns found an Encore station that is 24 hour westerns so that makes him extremely happy. I watched so many westerns up there it was ridiculous, ha! Reminded me of every Saturday afternoon growing up. So, that was nice in a way. 🙂

Sunday evening I went with my cousin Roberta and her daughter to see Puss in Boots. I’ll talk about that more in another blog. Needless to say I really enjoyed it. Afterwards I went over to her house and we talked for while.  And wouldn’t you know, right in the middle of the visit if Nancy didn’t call Roberta. Talk about bad timing! It made my cousin very uncomfortable having to talk to her, while I was there, but my cousin is a genuinely good and nice person and so spoke with her for a little while. Fortunately I had a homemade strawberry daiquiri to drink and forget about who was on the phone.

On Monday I went to Terre Haute with Dee just to run around and talk and stuff. Nothing too exciting there. I wanted to visit a store up there called Disc Replay to check out their DVDs but I couldn’t find anything I couldn’t live without so ended up not purchasing anything. I will say that I saw one of the funniest signs on a store that I have ever seen. It’s a serious sign but when I first glanced at it I busted out laughing the people in the car next me thought I was crazy. Okay, I AM crazy but that’s an entirely different story. Anyway, here is a picture I took of the sign:

During the week I also got to hang out with one of my old friends, Jesse and his two daughters Amelia and Arlie. Not sure if I spelled their names correctly, although I hope I did. It was great to spend time with Jesse. He is one of my best friends from up north, and one that I have attempted to keep in contact with over the years. He’s been through a lot himself and recently was divorced after his wife left him and his two beautiful children. She was never a real brilliant bulb anyway, just the same as the dim bulb in my life.

On Tuesday, I went back to Terre Haute with Roberta and Cassie (her daughter, I forgot to mention her name earlier) and ran around aimlessly for while. It was good to see the old stomping ground though I was sorry to see that the old comic book shop was now gone. I had gone to that same shop for over fifteen years when I lived up there. It was very sad to see that New Concepts was now just another memory. Sigh.

Oh! Before I forget, I was also able to partake of yet another delicacy I cannot get down in Florida. And don’t even say Krystals because they are pale imitations of the real thing: White Castle! Oh how I love those gut bombing sliders! And the onion chips are fantastic! Since I’ve been in Florida, Terre Haute finally managed to put in a White Castle that I had wished had been there since I was in high school! It is a true going home experience. Dang, when I lived up there we would often drive all the way to Plainfield, which is about an hour away, just to get White Castles! They are that good! The smell may make Cassie sick, but they were a bountiful bouquet of beauty to my nose! Yum yum get me some!

Even better than White Castle–I know, how could anything possibly be better–Tuesday night, at Roberta’s we had the best pizza on planet Earth! By far, this is the best pizza I have ever eaten and is something that I have to get every time I go back to Brazil. Maurizio’s Pizza in Brazil simply makes the best pizza anywhere. I have eaten a lot of pizzas in my time, remember I used to be 500 pounds just a couple of years ago, so I know what I’m talking about, and Maurizio’s has never been beaten. Oh, my goodness is it good! A big thank you goes out to Roberta once more for the dinner and the fine company that evening!

Wednesday evening my dad and I went to my brother David’s house for dinner. I had honestly been dreading this part of the visit as I was preparing myself of one of David’s famous lectures. Thankfully, I was pleasantly surprised. Not only had he invited us over but several others as well, which meant he wasn’t about to air my dirty laundry in front of everyone. The evening was surprisingly nice and laid back and we even went on a short boat ride in my brother’s pontoon boat on the small lake behind his house. Of course, I had fixed myself a rum and fruit juice drink and was feeling mighty good by then so the trip was great and I was able to take a few more awesome pictures. Oh yeah, speaking of pictures, I almost forgot the best part of the whole day on Wednesday. Before dad and I went over to David’s, we took a drive up through Rocky Fork in Parke County, Indiana. Now, Rocky Fork is an entire story onto itself and is a beautiful area out in the rural of Indiana where my mother was born and raised back in the 1930’s. When mom passed away back in 2008, dad and David took mom’s ashes and buried them out in Rocky Fork on some land that David had purchased to use for deer hunting season. So we stopped along the road where they had buried the ashes and I was able to see it for myself, and take some pictures. I’m sure mom would have thought it was nice to be back where she grew up, just up the road from the old homestead. I love that area of Indiana and have a lot of great memories of that place growing up. But, as I said, Rocky Fork is a story onto itself so I won’t go into any more details here.

Thursday I just lounged around the house with dad and watched some westerns and some old Godzilla movies I found on the movie stations. There was a really cheesy movie called “Rebirth of Mothra” which was really hilarious. I had no idea I was in for several more cheesy movies before the night was over. Thursday was the day I went over to visit my friend Scott in Paris, Illinois. Now Scott and I have been friends since the 8th grade when we met in math class. We both had Transformer watches and I remember telling him that my watch could beat his watch and our friendship grew from there. Besides Tim in Mississippi, Scott is my oldest and dearest friend. He’s been my music collaborator and writing partner for over 20 years. You don’t forget a friendship like that. So, anyway, over at Scott’s house we hung out for a while and went to Wal-Mart, which has been our tradition for the last two visits there. It was freezing at his house and his furnace is a joke so I ended up buying a space heater to use for myself that night and left it there for him to use. His old house that he rents is extremely drafty and looks like it’s ready to cave in all the time. Seriously, I wish I could convince him to move to Florida but for the first time this trip he admitted that he finally found a place that he grew roots and is going to stay there. I admire that in him. I hope that I can finally make that assertion about Florida, that I’ve truly laid down my roots, but with the uncertain future I face when it comes to everything else going on in my life, I’m not sure if I’m ever going to make that proclamation.

Wow, talk about getting off on a tangent. Ha! The movies we ended up watching were old sci-fi shows from the 50s. One was filmed at Silver Springs in Ocala, Florida called “Wild Women of Wongo.” Oh. My. Goodness. This cheese was so bad that it made Limburger stand up and say “what stinks?” Talk about hilariously bad acting and even worse dialogue. We followed that up with a pair of Japanese sci-fi movies from the 50s. “Prince of Space” and “Invasion of the Jupiter Men.” Wow. Talk about your crazy plots for movies. They were so bad they were good and kept us in stitches the entire time. Of course we sat there and made fun of everything, which made the experience all the better. It was like old times back in our early twenties, watching some cheesy B movie over at Quincy’s, making fun of it as it played as if we were MST 3000 or something. It was a great end to a great week.

So, now I’m back home, ready to get back to the old grind at WellHome and in the rest of my life. You never know what tomorrow will bring, ain’t that the truth? I hope it’s happiness for all of us–one way or another.




Miss My Doofas

My last real pet as a kid was a black lab named Spot. Yes, I know, that’s a weird name for a big black labrador. We had found him through a newspaper ad and for some reason the previous owners had named him Spot. Not wanting to mess with the dog’s fragile mind we let him keep his identity. So he became our Spot. He was a very good dog and I loved him very much. When he passed away when I was in high school my dad decided no more pets beyond easily disposed of gold-fish.

In 2004, I finally was able to get a new pet. An orange and white kitten I named Doofas. Why Doofas, you ask? Well, the cat kind of earned himself that name. We were moving into a new place and hadn’t put everything together yet. Someone had given us a big mirror to put in the newly rebuilt bathroom and it was sitting against the wall across from the couch. You know how rambunctious kittens can be, so here comes that cat, barely in the house a couple of days, when he runs across the back of the couch as fast as he could. Making a 90 degree turn off the arm of he couch he drove himself head first right into the mirror thinking it was the hallway. Okay, granted, a little kitten is going to do stupid funny things. And doing it just once would not have gained him such a name as Doofas. But after the second time of doing the same exact thing that was the only name that was going to stick and Doofas was his name-o.

There were many other silly things that cat did over the years that always kept me laughing at him. But he was also a cuddly little buddy and he loved being in the same room as me. When I would go to bed and close the door he’d whine and whine until I let him for a little bit. He’d lay on the bed for a little bit, get his ears scratched, and get picked on for a time and then he’d be all good for the day and whine and whine until I let him back out. That was our usual nightly routine.

When I was forced to leave my residence and wasn’t able to take my Doofas with me it made me very sad. On top of everything else making me sad at the time. I was able to see him a couple of times over the summer for a few minutes but it was never the same. Now, my estranged wife, saying that she couldn’t take care of him any longer, and me now with a roommate deathly allergic to cats, poor Doofas wound up at the humane shelter. I can only hope that he winds up with a loving family. I try not to think of alternative although I know it’s a possibility.

I love you Doofas! I know you were just a cat but you were MY cat and I will always miss my little buddy!


Just a lazy day for a lazy kitty cat.

Welcome to This POV – My POV

Okay, okay, I’ll admit it right out of the gate, why should you care about my POV? I’m not a politician, I’m not a mult-millionaire businessman, and I’m certainly not a rock star. So, why should anyone care about what I have to say?

Well, truth be told, nobody really should care about what I have to say or what my point-of-view is. It’s MY point-of-view, so right there I know for a fact that a lot of people aren’t going to agree with it anyway. I know that from experience and in dealing with people over the past 40 years.

Anyway, you’re probably going to hear a lot of “negative” talk like that out of me in this blog. I’ll tell you right now that I’m going to try to use this space as a type of therapy to help myself. I suffer from terrible depression and anxiety. Not so bad that I’m on every pill on the market or that keeps me from going to work, but the type of emotional stress that has made living a real chore the past few years. The last six months have been hell in more ways than one. There are a lot of reasons why I say that and while I originally put in here exactly why I say that, a couple of edits later I think I’m more inclined to wait to talk about it later. Needless to say, I’m not doing this to hurt anyones feelings, in fact, I’m doing this to help me feel a little better by getting a few things off my chest. And boy do I have a lot of things sitting on my chest. So, if you read this and feel that I’m too “negative” I’m sorry. Live the life I’ve lived recently, have the thoughts in YOUR head that I’ve had in mine, and see if you can be all sunshine and rainbows too.

But–and that’s a big but–things aren’t always so bad, I suppose. I do have some interesting, at least to me, interests that I plan on blogging about. And I can understand if no one likes or wants to read about this stuff too. Remember, I’m really doing this for me, not anyone else. I’m only making this public in case I do happen to write a gem or two along the way.

So look for me to update this periodically. Most likely not every day because frankly, unless I’m really in the mood to rant on about something I might not even remember I have this blog.

So, with that said, I look forward to ranting on into the future.